On June 26th we were on our way to the Dr. Vavra's, my dentist to finish a crown and I was feeling horrible. I told Dale that there is something definitely wrong with me and that I needed to see my primary physician ASAP! So on my way to the dentist I made an appointment for that afternoon to see a PA, since I couldn't wait until July to see Dr. Turay after all I was horribly sick with some disease or something.
We arrived at the Dr. Vavra's office and I told him I don't think you should give me the normal shot because I may pass out again (had a bad episode before) and so he gave me the one that is ok for pregnant ladies, which I found out later in the day. So, I made it through the appointment after almost throwing up several times still thinking everything but pregnancy was wrong with me. I told Dale that that was a rough visit, which I should have probably canceled. I then begged Dale to feed me ASAP to stop the queasiness.
My next appointment for the day was acupuncture to help me get pregnant even though I already was pregnant (how funny is that?). So, Dale took me to the that visit and I told them I can't do the treatment that they call Moxy (not like the yiddish word) but a treatment to help circulation for the uterus and all that sort of stuff on top of getting needles placed all over my body. The funny part is that the two people who do the acupuncture kept telling me at every visit that my pulse was too high (normal pregnancy sign that I didn't catch on to) and that my blood pressure was a bit off. I had an excuse for every visit-big tank of ice tea, msg from Chinese food, which I'm allergic too but risk eating, had a Starbucks and it raises my vital signs every time. Too funny looking backwards now.
Now we had house guest coming over for dinner, Anthony, Ryan & Norma, which were due to arrive at 6ish or so. So Dale said he was going to sit the last Dr. appointment at home getting things in order for visitors. So before I took off to that visit my friend Vic called to check up on me and misunderstood what I said about acupuncture. He thought I had said I was pregnant and that's why I was doing the acupuncture. And it was so cute, because he was almost prophetic saying that isn't it cool how God's timing is and that when we least expect He comes through for us even though it doesn't make sense and on and on...and then I said, "Vic, I'm not pregnant, I'm just still trying and thought I'd try homeopathic treatments now." He was so apologetic about the the premature congratulations and then I had to cut him off again and tell him I was late to my Dr. appointment now.
So, I went to this particular visit alone. I ended up seeing Mary the PA who works under Dr. Turay, who knows my history as well as Dr. Turay, so it was an interesting visit. It started with the nurse who teased me about how horrible my vital signs were and that they were no where to my normal stats, which I told him that's why I'm here something is amiss and I'm here to get lab work done to get to the bottom of this horrible illness that's consumed my body. So from there I went to see Mary and I told her I think PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) has taken over and I'm going full throttle Diabetic and we needed to get things in order as soon as possible. She sat there looking at me with a huge smile and said I think we should do a pregnancy test first. I told her she was hysterical and just needed to lab work for diabetes instead of toying with my emotions. She was persistent and said if not for yourself, do it for me. Please take the test for me and then I promise I'll do all the other lab work you want me to do. So, reluctantly I took the test and the nurse who started the process teased me saying that he likes to give the opposite results when doing pregnancy tests. I told him whatever, give me the darn test so I can move on to more important lab work. I did my thing, he did his thing and came out and told me I was pregnant. I totally punched his arm and told him he was a liar and an idiot for playing with me like that. He said, I'm sorry I told you that story before the test, but you really are pregnant! I kept telling him he was a liar and shut up! Well, Mary ripped around the corner grabbed the test out of his hand and started jumping up and down, hugging me and saying, "we're pregnant after 10 years, we're pregnant!". I told her she was a liar too! She showed me the test results and I still sat there in shock not believing this day, this moment, this earth shattering moment had come, and there I sat like a bug on a log with no emotion at all!
She then grabbed my hand and we ran into Dr. Turay's office, who was upset that I saw Mary instead of him, and told him the good news! We hugged, laughed, joked about all the years and that it was a simple diet and referral to Dr. Provanca who had started the ball rolling. After a long period of time and no one doing their work due to the celebration taking place, Dr. Turay says calmly, "does Dale know and where is he?" I said, "Oh my gosh you're right, Dale doesn't know and he's at home probably worried because I'm not home yet!" He wanted me to call him from his office, but I knew this was something to be said in person so that I could see his eyes and feel his emotion, so I took off like a bat out of hell (yes, I said bat out of hell-have you seen me drive?)
I rushed to Mervyn's and bought a card, gift bag, a girl and boy onesy(sp?), ran to the car, wrote something in it, wrapped the present and placed the hazardous bag with the test in it on top and flew to the house. Dale had that concerned look on his face and said, "you've been gone for over 2 hours, what the heck happened? I was getting worried about you but knew Kaiser would call if they had admitted you." I then said I had a present for him and he was a bit perplexed. He had that look that he didn't do anything that warranted a gift, so he had caution written all over his expression. I said don't worry just open it. He took it with great caution and saw the hazardous bag first and put it down and said, "I don't want to do this again. I don't want to give them another specimen, I'm done with that". I said, "What are you talking about Dale, did you even look at it?" He looked at it again and his big blue eyes grew huge. He said, "Is this yours? Is this for real? Is this what I think it means? Am I going to be a daddy and you're going to be a mommy?" His eyes were instantly watery as can still picture him in the kitchen with his back towards the sun room leaning on the counter behind him for support and an ear to ear smile I hadn't seen for a long time. Joy unspeakable that can't be measured nor can it be explained in words, you can just see it as it engulfs the person and trickles out like domino effect on everyone that comes in contact with him. My heart finally felt emotion, the key it needed to unleash the emotions was finally there to let my eyes well with tears in those most precious moments that only a man and woman can share together as they have endured so many other kinds of tears that no one has seen but them in the dark of night as they hold each other to make it through another day. It felt as if time had stood still and then he sat me down there in the room adjacent to the kitchen kissed me, held me, and began to kiss my belly and tell our child that he was daddy and he loved the baby very very much! My heart just burst at that moment to see that new side of Dale in seconds transform before my eyes. To know that one single life could have such an affect on two unsuspecting people in a matter of seconds. How incredible is this God we serve? I'll never fully know until that day comes. But for now, these glimpses of joy and tastes of heaven are enough to get me by. And to think we still have to entertain tonight when all we want to do is hold each other in complete privacy and talk about the future. We then decided we would keep it to ourselves, minus an elite group of people, and wait the three months before telling friends and non-immediate family members.
Entertaining that evening was like to basket cases trying to have a tea party with all the china and not breaking anything. I couldn't think clearly. I was in lala land and had to keep returning to earth that night. The smells were killing me and tiredness was consuming my body. The funny part is that Ryan, the one who's known us the least, noticed that Dale had touched my belly at different times and thought something was up but kept it to himself. Norma noticed nothing. Anthony could only remember my goodbye as I told him that he was still my number one son and he said that line bothered him or rather made him think why would she say that? Ryan forced Anthony to leave early because he noticed I was unusually tired and really trying hard to stay awake and karoake that night. Anyone who knows me, knows that I will stay up until 5:00 a.m. and pay the consequence later. So Ant knew I could stay up all night to sing, but Ryan in is overly observant way knew I needed much rest as he had speculated I was pregnant. What a secret to keep all night, because we wanted the parents to be first to know. It was so hard to keep any order, but we stuck to our list in who and when we would tell them our news.
to be continued...
